i hope you never think that i'll forget you
because everything still hasn't sunk in
the milkshakes, extra cash and gifts weren't enough
i still wish we could have spent more time together
but close to the end we had each other

and i want to thank you for
telling me about your Jesus,
and the Vietnam stories, told more for your benefit
the quiet times outside while you smoked
and letting me have you mostly to myself

but i remember the days we spent together
it felt like i was dreaming
i never thought not having you around
would hurt so much

and when i think of you
and it hurts too much just say

today i've fallen and i can't stand up
i need you to come help me up
and i everyday i miss you i just look up
and know the stars and God are holding you

i hope you look down often and see me
but i hope your having fun in Heaven
i'm glad your not in pain anymore
but that doesn't take away my hurt
i dont know who else to tell besides you

and when i think of you
and it hurts too much just say

today i've fallen and i can't stand up
i need you to come help me up
and i everyday i miss you i just look up
and know the stars and God are hholding you

i say

today i've fallen and i can't stand up
i need you to come help me up
and i everyday i miss you i just look up
and know the stars and God are holding you

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we watched cable t.v.
in the dead of morning
where the toilet paper ran thin
and we went to bed earlier than anyone else
and if you only hadn't had the sonic

and the far side of Arlington isn't that clear
just a little bit slower
a few more steps and then the greatness
you seem to have this figured out

your the reason i'm singing
and why the Ramen Noodles are alone
the history books need cleaning
and come back to bed
bring the stuffed animals with you

and the far side of Arlington isn't that clear
just a little bit slower
a few more steps and then the greatness
you seem to have this figured out

you didn't waste your time
only my cherry chap stick
and the occasional click of my mouse

and the far side of Arlington isn't clear
just a little bit slower
a few more steps and then the greatness
you seem to have this figured out

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it doesn't work if you scream loud enough
or if you pretend not to care
this sweet nightmare is very real
but remember this is your dream
and this is my tear stained bandana

you seem to be mixed up
but also so sure i'm the enemy

where are you? surely not here
i know you think of what we had
you betrayed me, pop tart
and took the carton of milk down with you

and i feel you watching me
with all other eyes on you
if you save everyone, who saves you now?
who are you now my dear?
i wasn't afraid of saving you

you seem to be mixed up
but also so sure i'm the enemy

where are you? surely not here
i know you think of what we had
you betrayed me, pop tart
and took the carton of milk down with you

i guess i'm trying to say
that you made a huge mistake
and your not gonna bounce back from this
and a apology wouldn't hurt your case
but what i do know is

you seem to be mixed up
but also so sure i'm the enemy

where are you? surely not here
i know you think of what we had
you betrayed me, pop tart
and took the carton of milk down with you

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i wrote you this letter, and i know you care
and i went three years on a fast from you
and the television reminded me of you
the dinners at four in the morning
you were my only single anti-drug

and i'm sure if you love hard enough
and sing loud even louder, sir

then maybe we can fight the man
blow the donut powder
end our imaginary reign of power
why don't you come play this guitar?

i saw you sing your favorite song
and fell asleep to the sound
of the very last week of summer
and up at nine to the sound
of the grass growing


and i'm sure if you love hard enough
and sing loud even louder, sir

then maybe we can fight the man
blow the donut powder
end our imaginary reign of power
why don't you come play this guitar?

and i saw you walking to the wal-mart
with Tyler on your arm and nothing on your neck
and where do you go
when you see those clouds coming
and watch as the world turns


and i'm sure if you love hard enough
and sing loud even louder, sir

then maybe we can fight the man
blow the donut powder
end our imaginary reign of power
why don't you come play this guitar?

i know you play the violin
and so does Thomas Jefferson
Martha probably also dance with the trees


and i'm sure if you love hard enough
and sing loud even louder, sir

then maybe we can fight the man
blow the donut powder
end our imaginary reign of power
why don't you come play this guitar?

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you make me angry you really really do.
how could you? you liar
my former baby boo.
i wish i could frogive you
but you know what you do! (kinda bible reference! lol. :])

im not gonna say
you were the best i had
or make you pay
i'm not in the business of misery
but baby

its not that you just hurt me
it has nothing to do with her
its that you crushed me
and the only feelings i had

what was going thourgh your head?
how could you want us both?
i had you so.
i let you look at the menu but not order anything!

im not gonna say
you were that best i had
or make you pay
i'm not in the business of misery
but baby

its not the you just hurt me
it has nothing to do with her
its that you crushed me
and the only feelings i had

but one of the thing I love about you.
is that you show no remorse.

im not gonna say
you were the best i had
or make you pay
i'm not in the business of misery
but baby

its not that you just hurt me
it has nothing to do with her
its that you crushed me
and the only feelings i had

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* I thought about what it would be like to be in Alex's place and to have someone steal their boyfriend. lol. *

i never let you down, honestly!
i doubt i could say the same about you
if i did i would be a liar
you ask why is it the way it is?
you must really be on something
my dear former friend

backstabber,
is not quite the word for you
but you are the..

your the bane in my existence
the thorn in my side
the needle in my haystack
the only one i want to disappear
the hated, the one my boyfriend dated

your so sweet to tell me
after six long monthe
you had been dating my boyfriend
you were expecting some type of mercy
don't get me wrong i still hate you!

backstabber,
is not quite the word for you
but you are the..

your the bane in my existence
the thorn in my side
the needle in my haystack
the only one i want to disappear
the hated, the one my boyfriend dated

your the bane in my existence
the thorn in my side
the needle in my haystack
the only one i want to disappear
the hated, the one my boyfriend dated

* hehehe! i like this! lol *

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i'm in the church where we first met
here with you is where i really am
in this world with only us two
is what i've fallen into
i will not go without holding your hand
your the one to blame for this feeling

it's hard to say when this began
but is it what we need to remember now?
it's what we did that counts

i loved you for so long and it's neverending
remember me like i am now
i'm planning to keep the promises i made
also remember, it's not over for us, Tyler

it's not that far away
fifteen minutes doesn't make a difference
in our world
the nights will only seen longer

it's hard to say when this began
but is it what we need to remember now?
it's what we did that counts

i loved you for so long and it's neverending
remember me like i am now
i'm planning to keep the promises i made
also remember, it's not over for us, Tyler

i loved you for so long and it's neverending
remember me like i am now
i'm planning to keep the promises i made
also remember, it's not over for us, Tyler

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This is the first issue of Philosophical Angie written by me Brittney Carter! Yes thats right this proves i did learn something in newspaper class! :]
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Rising Prices of Cheese
Ever since the end of February, the prices of cheese in Zimbabwe have completely skyrocketed. People all over the world including our president, George Bush, have traveled to Zimbabwe, to aid the cheese deprived victims. The U.N. even had an emergency meeting, and thought about ways to lower the prices of cheese, make more cows, or create different types of cheese.
Then one U.N. representative, Steven Winston, thought of a completely ingenious idea; recycled cheese.
And U.N. loved the idea and are currently putting it into action! Just yesterday they had a meeting about how they would create the recycled cheese, and many ideas were pitched but only one was embraced. Using recycled Hello Kitty products and grinding them up and creating cheese out of the powder.
This idea was also created by the U.N. representative Steven Winston.
Help is on the way Zimbabwe!

The End of Jazz Music
Some are saying yay. But most are very depressed because of the Americas current predicament. President George Bush has FINALLY outlawed Jazz Music. When Philosophical Angie interviewed him, he wouldn't say much, but he did mention why he outlawed it. Because of the rising number of hippies trying to take over the world. Is he crazy? Maybe. Do we support him? Heck no.

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Hah. I thought i should write this down.. :)

Ever since I could remember, I had never been good at friendships, i was too quiet, too shy, and i had always tended to choose people who were bossy, and mean, the ones who pushed me around and sent me home crying to my mother as best friends.
And at Erica's party i rode with her to Gameworks, and I waited for her to laugh at me or send me away, or maybe just ignore me like all the other older girls did.
And we sat in her truck and i thought wow, she seems so much older and wiser, she has to be like 18..
In her truck she moved her purse and other belongings from the passenger seat, with enough room for someone to sit, then she looked at me and smiled, and i pulled myself into the tall Chevy, and set beside her. We didn't talk right away but we had a whole lifetime of talking ahead of us. I just sat there with her and listened to Metallica.
Before my life was quiet and predictable, but now I had Alex, and from that night on nothing looked the same..

I remember Erica's party, and how i felt when I walked passed Erica, and i heard the rude things she was saying about Alex. i was so mad i wanted to hit Erica right then. But i didn't i just walked around the mall to cool off... But i remember Alex stopping me before, i could go inside the rest of the mall. She asked what was wrong, but didn't want to tell Alex what Erica had said.. so i just shook my head, then she said we are best friends right? you can tell me! :))

But more recently i remember two incidents with Alex that made me realize she is my best friend!
Once, she called me in tears, I could barely understand her, so i made my mom drive us home, so Alex could come over, and i could comfort her.
as soon as she came over, i covered her in blanket, and let her wear my clothes..

But the time Alex was there the most was when Trey broke up with me and she canceled plans with her boyfriend, so she could come to my house and stay with me! :]
She came over quickly, and hugged me as I cried..

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my heart beats fast
when your around
come closer maybe
you can hear the sound

my head is spinning
all i can do is smile
i think this love is winning...

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hey boy can't you see?
I want you to be in love with me!
Alex says just let it be,
And this is my plea

maybe God made a way so
i could see you again in the hall today
you make me feel like tis the middle of may!
no, it's not just another lazy day




//Note
Hah. No this is not about me okay? I was just thinking about how this one girl in my class, was thinking about this one guy she likes.. And I came up with this. :]

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i forced myself to look you in the eye
you didnt look back or turn around
we locked eyes for once
you didnt pass me by

i couldnt tell what you were thinking
with your loud emo stare
i still continued to go without blinking
for as long as possible without fail

and then you spoke
with a voice like,
a disney style prince
and all you did was say 'hello'

i cant exactly say what i felt
i was to focussed on tying not to faint
in the spirit of your presence
i barley seemed to succeed

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for as long as i can remember
its been fight after fight..
only getting better
after this quiet december
i traded you in for long teary nights

and you traded in me
for those seemingly sunlit days
it was a fair trade, just let it be
we'll end up doing this again anyway

the key to my heart
is at my feet
just pick it up for a brand new start
to stop the feeble attempts to feel pain

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You came back to me
like a dream
the memories of you
become part of the quiet, dark unseen

and eventually i remember
how it all ended
how quickly you stopped
to get off the ride

and then i come back to earth
and i think of your proposal
i can't think of much to say
you were the one that left me..

i'm not ready yet to try
you should understand why
i'm still fine with just getting by

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because your eyes are so bright
yet your still as dark as night
what's hiding behind those eyes
remember what you said
because you were so wrong

it's really really really not my fault
it was you that took the fall
your only running into walls
not knowing where to go

don't blame me
my love should've been enough
you didn't have to write that note
i already wrote mine first
so i think i win!

i already packed my clothes
i left the key
and took back the one that belongs to my heart
just sign here

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Church was today.. and it was quite normal I guess, there was a presentation for the closing of the theme we've been talking about this month. The presentation it self was well boring, the only exciting part was Alex, Her boyfriend Matt, and I imitating the characters voices with alien accents.. (whatever that means)!
But all in all it was so great..
And finally right now I got to talk to Aubrey, and let me tell you, not talking to him all day yesterday was hard you know? And what kind of name is Aubrey?! It's too much like a girl name! Every time I hear it I picture Alex with blonde hair coming out of her closet wearing a orange wedding dress... Hah. I had to get that off of my chest.. :]]

Comments are always welcome!..

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Once upon a time has gone today,
Along with all thoughts of you..
And everything you've taken away..
I couldn't wait to bid you adieu.

Alright! And no, you can't say it,
But yes that's right I want you back,
But the fact that you we're right I will not admit,
But yes without you the world is black..

Without you I am alone
I have no other to turn to,
No one to call on the phone
Yes I know I haven't a clue..

But can't I say i'm sorry?
Don't treat me like that thrown up calamari!


Hah. This was written some time ago.. About a fight I had with Alex.. And making up after the fight with Alex.. Hah.

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You, my dearest friend are always there,
Like a soft blue light you shine,
Like the sweet prayer,
That made our lives intertwine..

I always pray,
That this friendship never ends,
And that this cliche
May God never betray..

I always respect your sapient ways,
The way you speak about the coming future approaching,
And that quiet intuitive gaze..

That's the End! :]
Hope you enjoyed it!

//EDIT
I actually wrote this about my boyfriend Aubrey..
Yep
It's about him..

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I thought I should blog this... :]

Hmm.. I have pondering something lately.. Why is it that we, as Christians and as people prefer one sin over the other? Yes, that's right PREFER! We accept the liars with open arms but others like the homosexuals, we ostracize them, even though we are also at fault; we are liars too.. Some people even are adulterers.. But then why do we judge others? When we are liars? Why is it we have so much pride?

It even says in Romans 3:23 that "..for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.."

So it even says in the scriptures that we fall short of God's glory. God doesn't pick one sin over the other, at least not enough to ostracize other people..

So instead of picking one sin over the other why not.. "Be merciful on those who doubt; save others by snatching them from the fire; to others show mercy, mixed with fear- hating even the clothing stained by corrupted flesh" -Jude 22-23

So love the sinner (don't ostracize), but hate the sin..

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My life is spinning out of control..
No wait maybe its spiraling out of control...
Not just kidding..

It all began June 27, 1993.. The day I was born.. it all goes uphill from there..
then down hill a little bit.. now it's going up again.. :]

I have two friends.. Well technically ONE.. Her name is Alex.. And I have a boyfriend, whose name is Aubrey.. I absolutely love them both..
and I go to a school that only has 39 students in grades 7-10.. And at my school we have grades... kindergarten through 10 and every year they add a year.. but next year they hope to have 11 and 12 to complete the school.. :]
and I am in 9th grade... and there are 4 other freshman.. Alex being one of them..
And.. what else is there to say? I love life i do random things and I have contracted OCD from my mother.. Hah.

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This is just a poem that i wrote today...

don’t blink
if you do
it will be because you didn’t think
and then it will be too late
i will have already crumbled under all the hate
and all the lies
and the never ending second tries

You couldn’t even be there... not even.. you?
Not even when skies were still blue
Now you can tell me where you've been.
And tell me if it’s runs deeper than your skin
I won’t settle for a "it'll be okay"
I have strayed...
So far..
And yet here you are..

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